7/6/11 wednesday

i've moved some of my stuff downstairs so i'm not constantly in the office, meds and so forth.  have a weigh in this am, can't get on wlw, nothing unusual.  trying new regiome, wake up, coffee/meds/chair-at least for the next 20+ days.  arm hurts like hell right off the bat, i know from stories this isn't gonna be a cake walk by any means.  i don't expect to get full use back off my arm for 6-9 months, even then it will be limited.  well, at least my 'penis' works......

all the time i've spent thinking of how i'd like to look to working on it, then getting derailed by this.  i can now understand how people re-act to this injury.  question being, does it ever totally heal?  most of the time i read about it, the story is devestating to say the least.  being 45, i'm not 25 so that makes a 'big' difference.  spent a year recouping from my legs, now its 6-9 months or how-ever long recouping from this.

getting out the slow-cooker today to better plan my food, seeing i don't have to worry about eating heavy anymore.  i'm not sure if the a determent or an early warning.  seems as if my body is breaking down little by little, my legs were first and i overcame that, now its a rotator cuff that doesn't heal in 2-3 weeks rather 2-3 months.........

i start the monitor class next week, it gets me outa the house and back into the public.  i'm entering a very wierd realm here that i'm not use to.  i'm stating to wonder whats left that i can break or tear, i never thought i'd be here........

more later.........

7/3/11 Sunday

2nd day in the therapy chair, arm getting stronger.  need to get more sleep at night though, getting very painful sometimes.  more later.......

saturday, july 2nd

had surgery yesterday, very sore today to put it mildly.  having hard time staying awake.......